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A Long Awaited Inflection Point

[ Gray ] Yesterday, I finally hit a point during my therapy work where I did a big chunk of healing. I believe this in addition to a big chunk Ranger did not too long ago, we managed to make enough progress to start doing more stuff in the mind in general. Last night I was actually overstimulated and surprised by my stronger creativity skills, but that could have been the boatload of sugar contributing too. At the very least, things seemed to have improved overall. System Stuff This afternoon, I played in a sand box with Dream. He wanted to keep things simple and simple it was. I daydreamed quite a bit, my mind floating to stuff like Mark Rober's video about sand, but I was able to achieve the normal wonderland-focus feel. Things started off a bit shaky because I had some trouble focusing on the visualization warm-up. Once I changed the color to green, I made some progress. Dream encouraged me to do one detail at a time, although this may have been overly cautious on his part.

Oh wow, updates

System Stuff [ Ranger ] One thing that we're becoming more conscious of over time is the fact our headmates should get more time with us than just therapy interactions. Some time ago, we realized this and Dream seemed to do better. It's likely obvious to outsiders, but in the midst of our mental health struggles we need to make this fact more explicit to ourselves. A couple days ago, Ian pointed out that I hanging out with them after a therapy interaction is like a reward. It wasn't my intentions, but dang he's right. I wondered if I can use a random number generator just to check in with people or remember to briefly check in with people at random... like right now, or well, two days ago when I wrote this part of the post. Earlier today I felt okay enough I spent some time with Ian and I cuddled with him ^^ Speaking of the others, I spoke with Adriel a couple nights ago and checked in with him again last night. He seems to be feeling more stable, but he's still try

Reading PRs Idea

[ Ranger ] I was talking to Rob in the cBox and I mentioned my issue with PRs. I made an entire thread about this before , but it still didn't get resolved after that. I told him that I would read them wrong by wanting to make a 2 hour response post 10 pages in, and he pointed out I'm supposed to read the whole PR then make the 2 hour response post. I then wondered if I should take notes while reading PRs so I don't have to worry about forgetting things I want to talk about The notes can be as simple and straightforward as this: parrotnoia issues with possession communication issues wants to switch I can just cross off anything that gets resolved. And then when I'm done, follow Rob's advice and make the long response post then Why am I making a post about this? I figure that for those who also happen to have my problem, this might help them. I know this is a PR post on my blog, but I can hand out the link to people whenever I need to. Tulpamancy progress? No, but w

So Things Haven't Been Too Great

[ Ranger ] Howdy all. We haven't made an official public progress report entry that was actually posted shortly after it was written in eons . So far this blog has made me really happy and I bet I have only discovered the tip of the iceberg in my ability to customize things and add what I want to it. I don't see much point in badly summing up the last few years , so instead I'll just vaguely go over what happened since December. December through February was a rough time for us. We just barely made it through finals after an exhausting and nerve wracking semester. Gray learned something that flipped his world upside down and grieved about it for at least a month or so since. It's pretty much an open secret for what that was, but we don't like the idea of posting that explicitly on our blog just yet. I remember for about a week or two, Gray was scared and hid in the back. As for myself, I haven't been the happiest either. I struggled a lot with stress, and after

First post! Woohoo!

[ Ranger ] Howdy all! I decided that the best and easiest way to upload our progress report and other system information is by blogging it! Embrace yourselves, we are very new to blogging and will likely make lots of mistakes and bad decisions along the way. Most of our progress report is missing on our original "Shadow Quest" thread on Tulpa.info . The oldest first few posts are very old and then after a gap or two it's abandoned all together. I really like the idea of my progress report being a resource for others, but I also want people to read the progress report in the order of when the events happened, even if I publish those events on a later date. Hence, the pile of logs I have saved on my computer or stuffed away in our personal Discord server that have never seen the light of day. Unlike a blog, a thread doesn't allow me to change the timestamps or even the order of my posts. The other advantage to having a blog is no more ridiculous summary posts that are u

Test Post

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